Today has been horrible. Horrible. Horrible!! I feel like Otis, the chubby drunk from Mayberry. He could never quite get his act together. And that was me today.
My body ached everywhere when I woke up. I'm thinking that the ice-skating used some muscles that have lain dormant for a couple of years. I could hardly move. And then I made a big, BIG mistake. I got on the scale a day early. And that was it. My day ended. The scale number was the exact same as it read last week. No, no, no, no, no!!!!! I can't take it. Not today. I need a reward each week, and if lower numbers don't show, it's not worth it.
I thought I was prepared for a plateau. Apparently I'm not. So I turned around and pretty much topped out in calories today. I ate about 2300 total. And here's the kicker-- it was 2300 healthy calories. Yea. You would think I would have wasted it on chocolate cake or donuts or something. Nope. I'm either too stupid or to chicken to do that. I had Kashi Lean (High Fiber) cereal, smokehouse almonds, a protein bar and a protein shake, string cheese -- you get the picture. And by the end of the day I was so beyond irritated that I ate a BK cheeseburger for good measure. Just to sort of prove that I had rally blown it. AND I didn't excercise. No skating, no treadmill. It was complete diet anarchy!
I don't think I can handle a plateau. I don't know if I will get on the scale tomorrow or not. I probably will, just because I'm a numbers junkie. But I can't keep on and on if the weight doesn't drop. So here's the question: how do you break a plateau? Seriously. I could use help here. . . . I despise the weight I'm at now. I would be thrilled just to get out of the 200's.
I'm going to bed. Tomorrow is another day. Another big fat day. Ugh!!!!